A reliever

While wallowing in self-pity, my husband comforted me telling me that the most important thing in our life is WE.

At first this has not comforted me at all, but then he told me that we have a nice and just big enough house house for the four of us, and we have built it using our own resources, we have healthy bodies and the children are bright and happy.

And most of all we are children of God and we are surrounded with families who believe in Him and constantly pray for us and who would always be there to assist us.

After this he planted a long kiss on my forehead as if telling me everything is alright and finally it made me realized that my blessings are too many but my fingers along with my toes are not really enough if I would count them one by one, even of I have to include my husband's and kid's fingers and toes.

And so I am relieved and even thankful, much more thankful.

A sad Christmas?

Could money really make a person happy?

I am just wondering. Yesterday when I tagged along with my friends to the mall to buy their Christmas presents, I experienced a different kind of self-pity as I don't have money. My friend lent me some so that I could buy a present for one friend but that's all I could afford.

They were very proud in showing off their expensive flip-flops while I just look on. Nop I was not envious, because i have been content with what I have and i don't really go for expensive things. That's my most natural me. But, there are just certain things that I want to buy for my children that I just can't because simply I don't have money.

I was more depressed when I received a text message from my husband informing me that the fridge is empty and they have not cooked anything for dinner yet while I was feasting with my friends over a large pizza and spaghetti ( this was actually a birthday treat by one of them).

I felt guilty that I suddenly lost my appetite because I just couldn't go on eating while my children were hungry.

I arrived home with a heavy heart but all together relieved upon learning that they are already fed.

I just wished that this won't go on for a longer time.

Curfew is no longer effective

Malacanang has ordered curfew starting November 3o, yet it was only good for one day as it was suddenly lifted the next day. Hundreds were arrested for violation of curfew and they were sardined in jail, now that has actually caused more problem to the government.

Maybe this could be the reason why the order was not sustained at all.

In this present situation of our country, curfew is no longer effective as there are a lot of us who are already working in the graveyard shift and if curfew was not lifted it would mean a drop in the economy of the Philippines and besides our country is generally peaceful therefore there is actually no need to impose such order.

Freedom of Press threatened

For awhile I really thought that the government is really out of control when group of media people was arrested last night along with Antonio Trillanes.

It was actually first time in the Philippines when media were accused to be part of the uprising staged by Trillanes and his group. Ces Drillon a popular TV News anchor and reporter even complained when she and her group were about to be chained by that plastic cuffs but sad to say several journalists were handcuffed as they were led to the bus that will bring them to Camp Bagong Diwa in Bicutan for interrogation.

Where is the freedom of the press? Those people were just only doing their jobs because they believe that every Filipinos have the right to be informed of what really was going on with our country.

Refusing to go out of Manila Peninsula Hotel as the height of the tension didn't mean that they were among those who supported Trillanes and his group, all they want to have a first hand news of the events that will probably concern every Filipino.

Are being robbed off by the freedom to express and freedom to know? Yes, we want to live in a peaceful country but we want also to enjoy democracy.

Trillanes' cause not yet over

Yesterday's tension brought us back to the Oakwood Mutiny almost four years ago. Trillanes is back and he is back with a vengeance. But, that has a very sad ending. Once again his cause was futile and he was not successful in bringing down President Gloria Arroyo.

What went wrong with the plan? Or did they really planned to stage another coup against this government? Maybe if Trillanes and his men called all leftist groups and planned to meet in open space, there might be another revolution? Was the opportunity so sudden that when they saw the chance to walk out they immediately grabbed it without even thinking of the consequences it may bring.

Although, I was really sad upon learning that Trillanes surrendered and I really wanted to cry when I saw him being pulled by the military men who arrested him as if he was some kind of a fearful criminal, but I am also happy that peace is still intact and that no blood has been shed. I am happy that we won't another revolution in the Philippines.

If it did really happen what a sad Christmas we will going to have.

And I wonder what will the government do with Trillanes?

a new angle on marianett's death

I have been following the story of this twelve-year old girl from Davao City who committed suicide. At first, I could never really fathom how someone so young would contemplate on killing herself.

I never even believed that she did it due to extreme poverty. I myself couldn't believe that poverty is really that reason for her to choose to die so young. I believe that there must be a deeper reason behind it.

Many speculations have come out. First, she cold have been raped. And it was allegedly pointed to this foreigner who was with her few days before she committed suicide. Then there's this new angle that it was not a suicide but a foul play. And worst that her own father might be somehow involved in it. Why? first, when asked his whereabouts when the incident happened, he gave several answer on several occasions. Then why did he reported the incident four days after the
incident. Then how could she reach the ceiling when it was too high for someone who is little .

But these are just speculations. Let's leave everything to the experts and we hope that the truth will finally put Marianett in peace.

barking at the wrong tree

When Mayor Rodrigo Duterte spitted fire on Congressman Boy Nograles in his Sunday morning show " Gikan sa Masa, Para sa Masa" aired in ABS-CBN Davao, no one could really blame him not even.

How could a mayor be the cause of the death of a twelve-year old girl? Rody didn't drive the poor girl to kill herself. He doesn't have any control in anyone's mind. Although, he control on the city's peace and order, but when it comes to the condition of a man's mind and his attitude towards his present situation in his life. Well, this is probably beyonds the mayor's control. And everybody else's concern.

I grew up with a poor family and there are times that I could have not a decent meal in a day. There were also times that I just have to go to bed on an empty stomach. But that situation never even gave me a hint that dying would be my sweet surrender.

At this stage of my life, I could say that I am already in a good condition, but I am not rich nor I am poor. There are still times that I run out of money but never did I feel so sorry that I am not rich.

I do not blame my situation to the government or to any leader in the society . For basically i am in control of whatever is happening to me.

Maybe it is about time to think about this, instead of asking what the government has done to us to make us poorer, why don't we ask what have I done that I am still poor?